Friday, May 22, 2009

Whatever!

I'm struggling at the moment. Again. I know!

I seem to be struggling a bit lately.

On the upside I feel like from today onwards I'm able to implement some small steps to help with my weight loss journey. It's amazing how you keep learning on this weight loss journey regardless of thinking 'What else is there to learn?'. Today I realised I eat too quickly! Yep, could be half the problem why I'm plateauing and not moving much with my weight loss. I'm hungry....eat quickly and then have more than I probably need. Here I was thinking 10 minutes to eat a meal was 'normal'. At work if I don't eat in 10 minutes, well I'm pretty much guaranteed not being able to finish my meal and survive another 4 hours without food. So.....today I learnt that I should be taking at least 20 minutes to eat a meal. So....this means a lot of practice for me from now on. I grew up in a big family. If you didn't eat what was on your plate in 10 minutes you could guarantee that whatever was left would be attacked by your brothers and sisters. I use to be one of those sisters. One that use to eat my meal so quickly (esp if if was a favourite) and start attacking my brothers and sisters meals. We were never taught to eat 'slowly'. Mum use to say occasionally to chew our food 20 times per mouthful. I think I got to about 11.

So today I learnt or was taught how to eat 'properly'. Something I've taken for granted. I think the Dietician I saw today nearly fell off her chair when I told her it takes about 10 minutes to 'finish' my meal. Her facial expressions were very....well expressive. lol.

I have been struggling though. With exercise. Again and again and again and again this is something that keeps coming up. To tell you the truth I don't know how you wonderful people put up with me saying "It's too hard!". "I don't know what is wrong with me?". "Why can't I exercise like I use to?". I'm saying 'whatever' to these thoughts that come up. Whatever, whatever, whatever. I'll exercise in my own good time. But...it's still not happening. So I'm going to try and worry less about it and just do what I 'feel' like. If that is a 'walk' around the block, well it's a walk. It has to be better than nothing. My next step is perhaps to have a break from the gym or go to a new one all together. I need to change something. But for now, I'll keep plodding along. One day at a time.

3 comments:

  1. Glad to see you are posting again.
    I saw a programme on tv that followed different diets from 1900 thru to 1962, anyway one of them was the 'chew chew ' diet ..Basically you had to chew your food 30 times before swallowing.. but that was the only restriction, Well out of all the diets the chew chew lost the most weight.
    Something to think about....Must admit though I can't imagine chew CHOCOLATE 30 times before swallowing... I inhale it LOL
    Just keep plogging (or blogging) away Danni you will get there
    Oh BTW NOTHING wrong with you ...you will do it when it is the most important thing to you

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  2. I have a problem with eating too quickly too. I think sometimes exercise seems like a chore if you don't have other people making it more interesting. I found that if it was just me exercising then I didn't want to do it but now with 2 others I have to do the exercise or I let them down but it doesn't feel like a chore now.

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  3. Hey Danni
    I had exactly the same problem with eating my meals too quickly! I unfortunately only get 15 mins for lunch so lunch is something quick that I can't change as I only work 6 hrs a day, so for dinner I am now sitting at the table putting my knife and fork down everyfew bites and making sure I digest properly then have sips of water in between and i have now gone from eating a meal in 10 mins to at least 20 mins, so it does work mate as you said its a matter of practicing and it will fall into place. On the exercise front theres no point in forcing yourself to do it cause it only makes you hate it more, I have just gotten back into the exercise seriously after six weeks and to tell you the truth I needed that break as i was begininning to hate exercising so I can see where you are coming from so why not start with 10 mins everyday of walking and when you feel like it up it a bit more, its all about baby steps my friend. Take care
    Sam xx

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This is all new to me......

This is all indeed new to me! The blog stuff I mean. I've been wanting to do this for a while and as you can see I thought what the heck, I'm just going to do it! A working progress you might say? I think so. But with time you can only improve? Don't they say that with everything?

I'm not sure I feel that way about weight loss at the moment. I've hit my 1 year journey marker, yet I look at what I have achieved and start to question myself....is '27 kgs' something really to gloat about? To be proud of? Thats half a kilo a week, which fits in perfectly with what ww recommend...yet its simply not good enough for me!

'Why?' you ask? I think comparing myself to everyone else and what they have achieved has led me to doubting myself and feeling pretty crappy about how far I have come. I wanted to be so badly one of those people that say "Look at me, look at what I've achieved!". I try...but those words simply fade into the "Look at what? Big deal 27 kgs!". I'm a bit of a critic. Actually I'm a severe critic....of myself that is. Hence, why I've got myself into this situation in the first place.

So at the moment with all of lifes curve balls that are thrown my way, I simply have one motto "One day at a time!".....oh and perhaps one more "When your mind says give up, hope whispers one more try". This is what I'm living by at the moment and I must say with all the great support I'm getting from some wonderful fantastic people, hope is whispering a lot more to me!

I'll keep you updated on how things are going....in the meantime I'll keep plodding along and know that "I CAN DO THIS!".